No this is not about me giving you tips on how to be an adult. I need tips. Please. Help me.
In exactly 11 days (the 30th) I'll turn 19, and it makes me feel so old. Yeah I know I'm still young, but I don't feel like it. Honestly the last couple of years went to fast. In my mind it's still 2010. I can't believe I'll turn 20 next year. Twenty. At that age you're supposed to be an adult. Act like an adult. Doing adult things. I'm not ready for that. I'm not an adult yet.
I felt old when I turned 18 but now I feel even worse. I mean I've gotten used to my legal adult status, but I still don't feel like an adult. Also I should stop saying the word adult now.
I still don't have my life together. I don't know what I want, and at the same time I want too many things at the same time. I honestly have no clue what I'm doing with my life right now. I'm just doing what I think is right without having a goal in mind. You can probably tell from this blog. It's a mess. Just like my life.
I was lucky enough to go to the Twenty One Pilots concert last week, and when they played the song "Stressed Out" I was just screaming along.
I feel that song deep in my bones. It's like my theme song at the moment.
Haven't heard of it? Well you should. Here you go.