I'm so late with this, but it's still April, so it counts! April is autism awareness month. Except us autistics are done with the awareness, and thus we call it autism acceptance month. Because it's about bloody time there is some acceptance. Anyway, in this blog I want to point out a few things neurotypical people (people without autism) can do to help us, autistic people. Because sometimes you guys try, but you're just.. not really helping at all (despite the good intentions).
Don't put us in a box
Autism has a massive stereotype that's often enlarged in the media. When people think about autism they think about these weird unsocial people who don't speak much, don't like to be touched, are obsessed with trains and never grow up. While I do refuse to grow up, I'm nothing like the stereotype. I'm social! I speak a lot (sometimes too much)! I like hugs and I don't like trains (though I do have other special interests, more about that later). Autistic people are so incredibly diverse! In fact, none of us are the same. Seriously, I have two autistic siblings and a bunch of autistic friends and we're all so different. So please, for the love of all that is holy, don't put us in a box. Do something bold like, I don't know, get to know us. Like you would do with any other person.
Don't make decisions for us but ask us what we need
You know, I really appreciate all the good intentions people have sometimes. But when we're going on an excursion and you tell me you've made a day planning for me because "autistic people like to know what's gonna happen in advance", then that really tells me what you don't know me all that well. It's a waste of your time and brings me an awkward conversation. It's kind of like going to a bar with a Russian girl and ordering her a glass of vodka because Russians like vodka. It's just a stereotypical assumption.
While some autistics would love a day planning, I personally am not a fan. So what can you do to help me? To help us? Well.. how about you ask us what we need? Again, get to know us. We will gladly tell you how you can help make the world a little bit easier for us. For example, my friends know me well enough to know I don't like crowded places. So when they go ahead and take me to a quiet restaurant, I don't mind them having made that decision for me. It shows they care about me and know what I need (or don't need). Another example was the fact that my employers decided to give me a work space of my own. They did made the decision for me, but they did so because they know it's what I need. Because they have asked me before.
Give us the time and space we need
For autistic people, the world can be very overwhelming as well as tiring. And sometimes we just need to be completely alone to recharge. It's not that we don't like hanging out with you, it's that we love hanging out with you and in order to continue to do so in the future, we need to be alone. It's nothing personal.
I've had people call me a buzzkill for leaving a party early, or boring for not going clubbing. It hurts, because I don't want to miss out on the fun, but I have to. I have to take care of myself first. Luckily I now have a lovely group of friends who understand that I will usually leave a party after three hours. They understand that I may say I'm staying for dinner, but later change my mind because I'm tired. Don't force us to cross our boundaries. Being social is very tiring for us and it's even worse when we're forced to do things we can't handle.
Allow us to be ourselves
Autistic people are often considered weird. Well, maybe we are. But maybe we're just different. I've had people try and push me into something I'm not. Telling me not to do things or to do things differently. It doesn't work. We have our own methods, methods that make sense to us. When you try and change that up, it greatly distresses us. So yes, I know that the way I'm solving a problem is with a huge ass detour, but it's a detour that makes sense to me.
Also, please let us do whatever we need to calm ourselves down. The thing I'm referring to is stimming. Stimming means self-stimulatory behaviour. This is often a repetitive movement or noise or anything that we're doing or are occupied with, often to cope with an overwhelming feeling or a need to stay calm. For example, I bounce my leg, rub my nails against my lips, flap my hands and rub my hands against smooth surfaces. I also hum in a consistent tone when I'm really overwhelmed. Some people like to listen to certain sounds or look at something that's moving or glittering. I've had people tell me to stop stimming because it was annoying, resulting in me doing other things to stop feeling overwhelmed. Harmful things such as picking skin until it bleeds and biting my hand. Never interrupt an autistic person from stimming. More on this subject is explained perfectly in this short video.
Lastly on this subject, please allow us to talk about the things we're passionate about. Small talk is incredibly difficult for us, and we tend to find socialising a lot easier when we can talk about our (special) interests. I know this can sometimes not be interesting at all, but it shows we're attempting to engage with you. If the subject we're talking about doesn't interest you, try finding common ground. But for the love of god please stop talking about the weather. It's shit, we know.
Don't praise us for doing simple things
Okay, this may sound vague, but I can clear this up for you real quick and easy. Imagine being me (scary, I know). Imagine having been independent for about 4 years, meaning living on your own. Then imagine someone saying to you "Wow, it's so cool that you manage to live on your own without any help."
Feels odd, right? Well, I've had it happen to me. Sure, not every autistic person is able to live independently (and that's totally fine!), but we're not toddlers. We can do things. Things neurotypical people do too. Sure, they're a little harder for us sometimes, but that doesn't mean we want a medal for it. I don't need a medal just for existing and living my life. I don't want you to praise me for doing things just because I'm autistic. I want you to see my accomplishments and praise me like you would praise someone without autism. Of course I don't speak for everyone on the spectrum, but most people I know feel this way. Bottom line is: if you wouldn't praise a neurotypical person for it, don't praise an autistic person for it.
Autistic person vs person with autism
At some point somewhere on this planet, someone who's not autistic, said "hey, we need to separate the autism from the person!" and thus said that saying "autistic person" is bad. Why is it bad, you ask? Because people view autism as a bad thing. Because you wouldn't say "cancerous person", but "person with cancer", so it works the same for autism, right?
Wrong. Autism is not a bad thing. In fact, it's woven into our personalities. You can't separate me from my autism. Most autistic people prefer "autistic", but not all. So always be sure to ask. But when in doubt, go for "autistic".
And for the love of god please stop supporting Autism Speaks
Lastly, before this is getting waaay too long.. Please stop supporting Autism Speaks. They have done nothing but harming autistic people, yet they are the biggest autism charity there is. they call people with autism a burden to their families, people who use too much of the tax money, a disease.. With a quick google you can find out all about their harmful antics. Don't use the puzzle piece they use to represent autism, because the idea behind it is that we're missing a piece. We're not missing a piece, we're a complete person. Also, don't "light it up blue", for it is an Autism Speaks campaign. Use #RedInstead.
And now I'm done talking. For now. Time for me to vanish and write another blog post in a month or so (yes, this is a self-call out).
Recently I came across an interesting article about “stan culture”, which I highly recommend reading. It sparked something in my mind that I had been thinking about for a long time and wanted to speak up about: young people on social media. Don’t worry, I’m not going to be all like “ugh this new generation is horrible”. It’s gonna be quite the opposite, actually. I want to talk about how I am concerned for those people, because not long ago, I was one of them. If you are a “youngster” on the internet, this article is also for you. I don’t want to talk about you, I want to talk to you. I want you to learn from my mistakes. I hope you will listen.
But first, what exactly is “stan culture”? Stan culture consists of self-proclaimed “stans”, which are basically fans, often related to pop culture and music artists. At 22, I am still part of stan culture, but over the years I noticed some major issues arising. Like the aforementioned article said, stan culture can be very toxic. People get bullied, harassed and sometimes even threatened if they even dare to speak badly of the thing or person someone “stans”. But you can read all about that in the other article, because I want to speak up about what I learned from being a part of stan culture.
Don’t get me wrong, being in fandoms has quite literally saved my life. I’ve formed many online friendships over the course of eight years, of which quite a lot resulted in me meeting those friends in real life. Being a stan of something makes me feel like I belong somewhere, especially if I am surrounded by other stans. It gives you a sense of power. And that can be dangerous. Though I can proudly say that I never harassed anyone who spoke against the things I like, I did witness some of my fellow stans do so. I never called them out for it, and that was my mistake.
Let’s fast-forward to the here and now. I think the biggest group of stans is on twitter, and they’re often under 18 years of age. Like I said, I am now 22, so that’s not too far off from 18. But I’ve had plenty of time to reflect upon my teenage years, and what I came to realise is what concerned me. It’s what I see with these young stans too.
What I see is young people being naive. And no, that’s not meant as an insult, because I was (and sometimes still am) naive too. Most young people are, it comes with the age. I’m just hoping I can make them aware of it. Another thing I see is young people not realising that their actions have consequences. They don’t realise when they are doing damage in any way. And the third thing I see, and which especially applied to myself when I was around 15/16, is the over-idolisation of people. It’s very easy to ignore the bad stuff your idol is doing when you’re obsessed with them.
So I have a message for all the young stans out there. Please think for yourself. Don’t follow groups. Question everything. If someone in your stan group says a certain thing or person is bad, ask them why. Do your digging. See if it’s true. And if it is true, handle it responsibly. Don’t go looking for a fight. Don’t provoke anything. Don’t spew hate, that includes anon hate. You can spend your time so much better. Be the better person. But also be wary. Don’t let people use your good nature against you. There are bad people in the world, and if something is too good to be true, then it’s likely that it’s not true. Be careful with your personal details. Be careful with your money. Don’t let people manipulate you into doing things you don’t actually want to do. No always means no. Please remember that.
You’re all lovely and wonderful people and your teenage years are an important part of your life. They help you grow into the adult you’ll be later on. And I hope that adult will be strong and compassionate. I hope they will see the world with their own eyes. Not those of others.
I've been practicing witchcraft since 2016. Or well.. trying to do so. I still have a lot to learn. But that's beside the point here. Because the point is, many people ask me "how did you become a witch?" and "can I be a witch as well?". I'm going to answer both of these questions for you.
Let's start with how I got into witchcraft. I've always had an interest in the occult. Or actually, in magic. Growing up, Winx Club was one of my favourite things to watch because two things I love were involved: fairies and magic. Another movie I watched a lot when I was younger was the Sorcerer's Apprentice. So it's not really a surprise that another movie sparked my interest in magic once again when I was 19: Doctor Strange. Now, I know this sounds weird, but watching that movie reminded me of how much I was interested in the occult, mainly because what Doctor Strange suggests is that everyone can learn magic.
So why did I never do anything with this before? Well, for the very simple reason that I believed that witchcraft was the same as Wicca, and Wicca is just not for me. So when I found out that witchcraft is not a religion but a practice, I was sold. I started to gather as much knowledge as I could find and I really dove into it. And so far it's been a great journey of self-discovery and healing.
Now onto the question "can I become a witch?". The answer is yes! Anyone can become a witch. You don't have to be a certain religion to be a witch either. When you decide you want to be a witch, I do ask of you to take it seriously. It is, in my eyes, a sacred practice. And although I often give my practice a modern/loose twist by letting go of formal chants and tight rituals, I do take it seriously. Of course, if you find that it's not for you, that's fine! But do it because your intentions are pure, not because it's a trend (looking at you, Sephora).
Another question I often get is "how do I become a witch?". Well that one has a simple answer: research and practice. Witchcraft is a lot of reading and learning. There is such an incredible amount of information on different topics such as spell work, divination, energy work, crystal magick, herbalism, spirit work, etc. It can be very overwhelming when you start, so my advice is to pick one or two things that appeal to you at first. Also, there are different types of witches. I am an eclectic witch, meaning I kind of form my own path. But there are also, for example, green witches who work with the earth mostly, or storm witches, sea witches, and many more!
I could talk about this for hours, but that would make it a very long read. So instead, I'll leave some links with information for you to read in your own time. Hope this cleared things up!
Complete beginner guide to witchcraft.
Different types of magick.
A website with lots of interesting articles.
The year is coming to an end, so as is tradition, I will make a blog post where I sum up all the things that happened in this year. And this year a lot of things, happened to there's plenty to talk about.
Time to adult?
2018's theme was graduation and moving into the next phase of life. In February I started on my graduation report and last November I finally graduated. It hadn't been easy, but I did it, and I couldn't be more proud of myself. I also got a full-time job at what I think is quite possibly the most fun marketing agency in the world. I love the job and love my colleagues, so it doesn't really feel as work. It does feel weird though, to be a working "adult". Somehow the past few years went by really fast and I'm not sure if I know what I'm doing. But I'm making it work.
Travel, travel & more travel
2018 was the last year I had my free student public transport card, so naturally I combined this with the fact that I hardly had classes. I travelled lots through the county and met with many friends.
But I didn't just stay in the country. I went to London Comic Con, which was my third time attending that. It kind of sparked my love for cosplay again and motivated me to finally make my first cosplay. Previously I would buy or commission them, but now I wanted to make one myself. And I did. I wore my Scarecrow cosplay during Dutch Comic Con and got so many compliments! It really made me happy,
I travelled even further and went to Moscow, Russia with my younger brother during the Summer. I loved the city and spending time with my brother was great. I really love to travel and I hope I can continue travelling in 2019.
Apart from getting creative with cosplay, I started exploring my abilities to create things. I told myself to write a poetry book in 2018. Not publish it, just write it. And I did so. I still have to finis things up, but most poems are in a word document right now. I do plan on publishing it, I'm just not sure how yet.
Apart from writing, I also went back to visual media. I started creating videos again and started spending more time with my camera to take photo's as well. I do really hope to continue this in 2019 if time allows it.
Lastly, I tried out acting. I did a few small jobs but eventually realised that I wasn't qualified enough and not motivated enough to follow more lessons. So I let that go. But it was fun to be an extra, though! And I'm proud of myself for trying.
Welcome to the exciting world of me
2018 was also the year where I started becoming myself more. The past couple years I became more and more myself and found my style. But this year I decided to let go of all fear and just 100% be myself. To accomplish this I had help from a psychologist to help me deal with my self-esteem issues. Because the winter of 2018 had been extremely rough, with many very heavy depressive episodes and suicidal thoughts. I'm doing much better now, though, and I'm showing it. I found my style, started wearing face paint simply because I think it looks fun. I stopped suppressing my tics and odd habits. When I listen to music in public I'll dance along and playback and move my head without caring if people are staring. Basically, I stopped trying to be something I'm not, and it's the best thing I've done in years. People accept me, and if they don't they're simply not worth my time.
So what will 2019 bring for me? Well I'm hoping to get that poetry book finished. I hope my webstore will grow more. I'm saving up for a car and I'm hoping to move out of my student flat and get my own place. I'm just excited to fully transition into an independent adult life, although I don't view myself as an adult yet. 2018 has been a rollercoaster, and I hope that 2019 will give me room to finally breathe and flourish.
What about you? What are your hopes for 2019?
A while ago I was casually scrolling through my instagram feed when I got an ad for a beautiful t-shirt. It was white with little "worms" in all sorts of colours on it. I decided to check out the page the ad came from and instantly fell in love with the clothes I saw. The page belonged to Mokuyobi. So when Black Friday came around I took my chance and ordered two t-shirts from them. Today I got them in the mail, so I'll be doing a short review.
Mokuyobi is a clothing brand based in Los Angeles, USA. They make super rad clothing and accessories with fun prints and designs and honestly? Everything they make is to die for. I'm currently saving up for one of their watches and backpacks. I say saving up, because their items are quite pricey. But I understand that that's because they manufacture everything in the USA and because it's original designs. I don't know about you, but I'm more than willing to pay extra for the unique.
ORDERING, SHIPPING & PACKAGING
I ordered 2 t-shirts: the Noodle Doodle tee and the Jan Casper tee. I wanted to order more but my budget wouldn't allow that, sadly. I am subscribed to Mokuyobi's newsletter and thus I got a 20% discount code as a subscriber, for the pre-sale of Black Friday. Ordering was easy and went smoothly. So then I just had to wait for the package to arrive. Coming from the USA, I knew it would take longer. In the end it took about 3 weeks to arrive. I did have to pay a customs fee, but I usually have to do so when ordering from the USA so I knew that beforehand.
The shirts were packaged in a regular shipping plastic bag, or whatever you'd like to call those. It's those plastic shipping bags clothes always come in. If you ever bought clothes online, you know what I'm talking about. Anyways, when I opened it I saw they included gifts! I was honestly so happy with that. They included stickers, a Mokuyobi enamel pin & one of my fave candy! Also the cards they included with information also looked super nice, so that was definitely a plus.
I ordered both tees in large because I'm tall and I like tees with a loose fit. The material feels nice and gentle. Thin, but not of bad quality. Not at all, actually. The tees feel like they're high quality. The fit is also really nice. The length is perfect (even though I tucked them into my jeans) and so is the amount of bagginess I had hoped for. The colours are super bright (just how I like 'em) and absolutely stunning. Now let's just hope my washing machine won't fuck them up.
I'm very satisfied with my order, from start to finish, and I'm super happy that I found out about this brand. I think their designs are one of a kind and definitely suit my daily style (which is wearing so many colours people's eyes start to burn). I will definitely be buying from them again (I have an entire wishlist by now) and I recommend this brand to all those who want to spice up their wardrobe with some colour.
A while ago I was contacted by a jewellery company called Civion with a sponsor request. They said that they wanted to send me a jewellery piece of my choice if I only paid the shipping. Before I agreed I looked into it because I know this is a known scam, but the site seemed legit, there were people on instagram who tagged the store in a photo of them wearing the jewellery, and there were some positive reviews. So I figured, why not?
Two weeks later I received the choker I had chosen. It was cute, but I immediately recognised that it was cheap quality. The description of the choker did say "lightweight" but that does not equal cheap. I wasn't sure what to do with this because they expected me to make a post about it. I didn't wanna lie about the quality but I also didn't want to get in trouble with the company (because I'm a wuss). But when I found out where they most likely get their item from, I decided it was time to write this post (and make a video).
I typed in "triangle choker" on Aliexpress and I found the exact same choker I received for $0.35. They sell it for about $32. That's an insane amount of profit they make. I then thought "maybe Chinese companies stole their design" because I didn't want to jump to conclusions. But when I found a lot of their items on Aliexpress I became pretty convinced that they do indeed get their items from there. Either that, or their supplier is scamming them. But it's disappointing nonetheless.
If you wanna know the full story + get tips on how to avoid being scammed like that, check out the video below.
I've never been a good sleeper. Even as a young child I struggled falling asleep. Until this day I can't take naps and I can only sleep when lying down. And even then I struggle. For me this is caused by my autism, which caused a melatonin deficiency. Melatonin is the substance your body produces when you're going to bed. It tells your brain you're going to sleep. My body doesn't produce enough of it, so when I don't take my melatonin pills it takes me up to two hours to fall asleep. Even with the medication it often takes an hour, and I've had countless of sleepless nights. But I learned a lot from those nights, and I want to tell you what I've learned.
1. Don't look at your phone
Now, I'm not gonna tell you not to use your phone an hour before you go to bed, because most people do this anyway. What I mean by this is that if you can't seem to fall asleep you shouldn't look at your phone again. By doing this you expose your eyes to light, which will only wake you up more. Also, if you're going to tweet or message people, your brain goes from its resting state to having to do things that require focus. So once again you're activating yourself more. So if you can't fall asleep, don't look at your phone.
2. Don't look at the time
This trick I learned from my parents. Often when you can't sleep during the week, you're gonna look at the time and think "Oh crap, I have to get up in 5 hours!". If you do this you're gonna stress yourself out, and what happens when you're stressed? Right, you're more alert. So turn your alarm clock the other way so you can't look at it. Just try not to think about the time.
3. Get up briefly
If you've been in bed for an hour and stil feel wide awake, get up for a minute. Go to the toilet (only use minimal lighting in the bathroom), drink a bit of water, go watch the stars briefly, and lie back down. I've found that after I've gotten up I fall asleep not long after. I'm not sure why, but I think it kind of pulls you out of that "I gotta sleep I gotta sleep I gotta sleep" mindset and sort of resets it for you. Kind of like a second attempt. A fresh start.
4. Exhaust your mind
Apart from a melatonin deficiency, I also have ADHD. This causes my mind to be extremely active all the time and sometimes my body as well. Often I can't sleep because my head is so full and active. My thoughts go rapidly and I can't seem to clear my head. So over the years I developed techniques to exhaust my mind a little. The one I used most when I was younger was to read (with dim lights). By reading I had to focus on something. Eventually I would quit when I found that I could barely focus on the words anymore. After that I usually fell asleep within half an hour.
The second trick, and my most used one to date, is to count backwards from 100 while lying in bed. When doing this you ask your mind to focus on the counting. I do this slowly and usually the beginning is easy. It's when I get to 40 that I really have to try very hard to focus. I always make sure to make it to 0. If it went really easily I repeat it as much as necessary. Usually this calms my mind and I fall asleep about twenty minutes later. I think the most important part here is to find something to focus on. Sometimes I make myself focus on my breathing. You just need to distract your mind from your thoughts.
5. Check your breathing
I just said that sometimes I focus on my breathing as a distraction, but what I'm actually doing it applying meditation techniques. This helps you relax. Breathe through your stomach (so to say, just make sure your stomach rises and falls and not your chest) and focus on that. Focus purely on breathing calmly. If you can't sleep because you're stressed about something, this will help you feel more relaxed. But in any case it's a good thing to do.
Do you have any tips? Comment them below!
Guess who's back? Well.. Guess who has been back for about a month but was too lazy to write a blogpost until now? That's right, me. I went on holiday to Moscow with my younger brother and had a great time! And based on my experiences I will give you some things to keep in mind when travelling to Moscow (or any other big city).
1. The language barrier
Before we went to Moscow I already was informed that not many people spoke English in Russia. I was expecting to have to keep things simple in terms of communication, but what I was not expecting was that most people did not speak one single word of English. This made things quite difficult. However, I did come prepared. I downloaded an offline Russian dictionary app and I downloaded the Russian dictionary on the Google Translate app. Especially the latter is great because not only does it allow you to translate offline (since we didn't have wifi in most places and data was too expensive), it also allows you to use the camera function to live translate signs and other written things. This helped us on a few occasions. So if you go to another country with a foreign language I definitely recommend doing this.
2. Finding your way
There is one app that saved our asses during this trip: citymapper. Citymapper is an app that allows you to get around in a city of your choice (it goes by location). It works on wifi but what I did was to save all possible trips for offline use when at the hotel. The evening beforehand my brother and I would pick out three things we would be visiting the next day and I would map out the entire route and save all public transport trips in the offline mode of citymapper. Even when offline it tracks your location so that when you have to walk from a busstation to the actual address it can give you the route and tell you where to go. It shoes the possible public transport options as well as the duration of the trip. At one point I found that it also gave me reminders like "get off at the next stop". I definitely recommend that app for travelling anywhere.
In Russia they use Russian roubles. Now if you're used to a currency like Euros, Dollars or Pounds, you'll very quickly find that everything is super cheap. We managed to do groceries for around €12 which here would've cost us at least €20 if not more. However, it's easy to get lost in this and end up spending way more than planned. So I advice you to beforehand calculate how many roubles is one Euro/Dollar/Pound/whatever it is you use. You can check the currencies online. By doing this you can quickly calculate how much something approximately costs before buying it. I also advice paying with cash. Not that my card didn't work, but it helps you keep better track of how much you've spent. And only get cash at actual banks, not random ATMs on the street. This goes for any country, honestly.
4. Watch your stuff
I always take a small backpack with me when travelling because I always carry things like a water bottle, food and a power bank. However, I keep my valuables close to me. In Moscow I kept things like my phone, debit card, cash, passport and hotel keys in a small travel bag that was hanging around my neck. This way it'll be very hard to steal. Also a side tip for the photographers out there: buy a camera holster. It saves a lot of neck pain.
5. Enjoy the city!
Going to Moscow or any big city can be stressful because you don't know the way, the language or how dangerous it can be. I have to admit, the first day I'm always a bit nervous because of these things. But after that I completely relax and just have fun. So try to let go of your worries and just have fun! Also try some of the local food and buy a cheesy souvenir. There's nothing wrong with being a typical tourist.
I also made a vlog documenting my trip, which you can watch below!
It's been a while since I've done a lens review. I haven't really had time for them. But Klenspop was kind enough to send me a stunning pair of coloured lenses: the Mojito Green lenses from the brand Lenspop. So without further ado, let's get into them!
I'm not going to discuss the packing, shipping and communication because it always remains the same (I've done a lot of Klenspop reviews in the past). So let's get right to the lenses. When I got them, my first thought was "wow, these are super light! Are they even gonna show on my eyes?". The answer is: yes. They do show. Very well.
The colour on my eyes is absolutely stunning and it looks pretty natural. Like I have very intense green eyes, which I love. I can definitely see myself wearing these casually.
The first thing I noticed about these lenses was that when I put them in, they immediately felt comfortable. Often the first ten minutes of wearing coloured lenses are quite uncomfortable due to my eyes having to adjust and the lenses kind of itching. But with these I didn't have that at all! They felt very nice.
After wearing them for a day I found that they remained pretty comfortable but that, just like with many other lenses, my eyes would get pretty dry and the lenses would start to itch a little bit. However it's more comfortable than many other lenses I have.
I would give these lenses a 9/10 because they look amazing and are quite comfortable. I'm not sure how they would look on someone with brown eyes, since they're pretty light. My guess is that it would give a green glow. These lenses are great for casual wear but could also be worn for cosplay. I will definitely wear these more often!
*this is a sponsored review, however my opinions are 100% honest
It's been a while since I last dyed my hair. After having had my hair blue around this time last year, I decided to let it grow so it could get healthy again. A couple weeks ago I deemed it healthy, and thus I bleached and dyed my hair again. I used a brand I haven't used before: Lunar Tides. I decided I might as well review it!
Lunar Tides is a brand that sells 32 different shades of hairdye. They made this many shades so you can easily find the colour you're after without having to blend different dyes or using diluters. Their dyes are 100% cruelty free and they are vegan.
I chose the colour Solar Flare, which is orange. I've never had orange hair and I figured I might as well give it a try. I first bleached my hair with Manic Panic's vol 40 bleach kit. After that I applied the dye. The dyes come in a jar of 4 oz, and for me that means I can use it twice. The packaging looks very cool. It has a witchy vibe which I love! It smells great and I always apply it with my hands because I'm unable to use a brush properly (I just suck at it).
I found the dye incredibly easy to rinse out. I've had brands where I'd be rinsing my hair for fifteen minutes before the water came out clear. With Lunar Tides, it took me about three minutes, not to mention that it smelled great. It has conditioner in it (or at least that's what it seems like) which makes my hair feel pretty soft and smooth. The colour came out a lot brighter than I expected (it's brighter than it looks on the photo's) and at first I wasn't sure what to think. However, I now love it!
When my hair gets wet it doesn't bleed, but I do smell the dye which is very pleasant. As long as you don't shampoo your hair the colour remains. When applying shampoo the colour fades a bit, but that's normal for most dyes. I do feel like it fades less quickly than other dyes.
I definitely love this brand. They have a lot of colours to choose from and the dye is just great. I got myself some pink dye as well so after orange I'll be going pink. Ordering from their site when outside the USA is expensive because of the shipping costs. For people living in the Netherlands: Attitude Holland sells the dyes as well. For others: check to see if you can get it from alternative shops or other places where you can buy unnatural hair dyes.
I think I'm getting better at posting this series more regularly. Once again, I've found lots of cool songs that I want to share, so here we go!
1. Binky - Fireflies
Recently I got back into folky songs. I usually listen to them around the winter, but this one (idk if it's actually folk but it sounds like it) has more of a summery vibe!
2. Sjowgren - Seventeen
When I first listened to this song I went "Holy shit, this is really good.", and honestly I still think that. I have yet to listen to more of their songs, but I have to share this one!
3. Fuvk - Anywhere
Recently I've been listening to Fuvk a lot, since their songs are really calming and often very cute. This one is my favourite!
4. CupcakKe - Barcodes
When I first listened to CupcakKe I wasn't sure what to to think, but now I love her! She's a sex-positive female black rapper and she's really doing such a good job!
5. Marian Hill - Down
This song starts out really calm and then has a nice beat. I really like those kind of chill vibes that this song provides.
6. Flight Facilities - Foreign Language (Personal Touch Remix)
I'm a sucker for a good remix, and this one is one of those! It really gives me summer vibes and instantly puts me in a good mood.
7. Class Actress - Journal of Ardency
I found this song through the tv series "Barry" (which I really recommend watching!) and honestly it's sooo good!
8. Young Mister - Anybody Out There
This song is honestly so good (I say that about all these songs, but they're all just amazing). The singer's voice is really nice to listen to and the song has good summer vibes.
9. Phoebe Bridgers - Georgia
This woman's voice is so incredible, and it makes me wonder why she isn't world famous yet.
10. Soap & Skin - Me And The Devil
I found this song while watching DARK (another recommendation!) and I fell in love with it honestly.
11. BØRNS - Dopamine
This song just instantly puts me in a good mood, and I don't understand how I've never heard it before. It deserves way more attention!
12. BINGLE - Coming Home
This is one of those songs that I imagine listening to in a car with an open roof (that I wish I could afford) while driving to the beach. Good vibes.
13. Jaded - Pancake
These kind of songs are really nice to listen to while walking for some reason. Makes me pick up my pace a lot while feeling like a badass.
14. Castlecomer - Fire Alarm
And last but not least, some Indie Rock. Rock is always good.
Got some song recommendations for me? Let me know in the comments!
Lately I've been cleaning out my closet to make room for new clothes. Luckily for me, I got sent this cool t-shirt by Storedogdog! So let's review that, shall we?
About the store
I've known this store for about two years now and have personal contact with the owner. The store started because they used to supply for Inu Inu (and the following words are exactly why you shouldn't support them) but Inu Inu scammed them for a lot of money, leaving the owners of Storedogdog with a lot of items they couldn't do anything with. So they decided to start their own store and sell the items for a better price with free shipping. Inu Inu had been selling the same items for super high prices, and when they found out what Storedogdog was doing they tried to shut them down (which is super immature). Also Inu Inu claimed to have original designs but later turned out that only half of those were actual originals. The rest was sold by Storedogdog too so it came from a Chinese supplier.
The owner (and the rest of the team) of Storedogdog is always super helpful and replies as fast as possible. They are willing to reship items free of charge when it gets lost and want to make sure your order arrives safely.
Shipping and packaging
Storedogdog always has free shipping, which is awesome! It's usually pretty quick as well. They ship from China and I believe I got my order in like a week. The longest I had to wait for their package was 2 weeks, the average is about 10 days.
It's always safely packed and I've never ordered any items from them that turned out to be damaged.
I really love stripes and colours so this shirt is something I fell in love with. I had hoped it was a cotton shirt, as I find those a bit nicer to wear in warmer weather, but it turned out to be synthetic, so that's a bit of a bummer. However, it's of good quality and I think I will be wearing it quite a lot.
I really do recommend this store, as it's one of my favourites and I have a really good experience with it. The owner works very hard on it and you can definitely see that pay off. However since this store carries Asian fashion I want to give a warning to always look at the sizes. They are Asian sizes and thus smaller. If you want this shirt, you can buy it here.
*this is a sponsored post, however, my opinions are 100% honest.
I like learning languages. I'm not saying I'm good at it, or that it's something I spend loads of time on, but from time to time I like to sit down and learn new words in a foreign language. Unfortunately, I can't afford (or sometimes even find) a teacher, so I have to do it myself. This post will give you an overview of tools you can use to learn a language. I used Chinese as an example because that's what I'm focused on right now, but you can apply it for any language.
Most people know Duolingo. I have used Duolingo in the past, but I found that I didn't learn the things I wanted to learn and that it also often didn't offer the languages I was looking for. So I found Memrise. It's very similar to Duolingo but it offers way more courses. It even has a course for sign language! It has a website as well as an app, so you can use it on multiple platforms.
For Chinese, I found a handy offline dictionary that I used a lot when I was in China. It has an Chinese to English and English to Chinese function. When I needed something and didn't know the Chinese word, I just typed it in and showed it to the other person. Apart from using an (offline) dictionary for travelling, you can also use it to look up words for your study. I think every language has a dictionary app. It's a very good idea to add one of your target language. I also use it to translate words I come across so I can learn them. For those learning Chinese, this app is called Pleco.
Tumblr is actually a really good source for language knowledge. I simply typed in "learn Chinese" and I found hundreds of posts with lists of words and their translations, as well as grammar lessons from people who are fluent in Chinese. Sometimes there are even blogs dedicated to a language.
HiNative is an app where you can ask questions about a language to natives and other learners. Simply add your target language and ask a question. Usually you get an answer within an hour. You can also do voice questions, asking for opinions about your pronunciation. Other than that, you can also answer questions from people learning a language you're fluent in. It's kind of a community forum and it's very helpful!
5. Popular media
A very important one is to listen to songs in your target language and watch films and series that are in that language. By listening you can pick up a lot of things, especially, if you have lyrics or subtitles on hand so you can connect words you hear to their meaning. What I do for Chinese is to watch live streams in an app called UpLive. Live streaming is very big in China and some people are making a living with it. I usually just watch the live streamers and try to pick up words. Right now I don't understand 95% of what they're saying but I did learn a few new words just by watching live streams for like 4 hours. Also the chat box in the app helps me learn Chinese characters.
This is a website made for making friends to learn languages with and write letters to. I have made a couple friends here, one of which I ended up meeting in real life! You can make a profile and add which languages you know and which ones you want to learn. You can search for people by things like age, gender, country and language. If you find someone who you want to connect with you can send them a message. Having native speakers to turn to when you have questions is very helpful, so if you don't know any native speakers, this site can help! I do have to add a warning to this, though. I usually search for females (or at least people who are not male) because 8/10 males that come into my inbox are just looking for a relationship. There are exceptions, as I have made some male friends too. Luckily you can add a setting where you can filter who can message you. But don't let it stop you, because this website has a lot to offer.
Do you have any platforms to add? Let me know in the comments!
Lately I've been having some setbacks. I'm not gonna lie, it really sucks. But it inspired me to write this blogpost, because over the years I've learned to deal with failure. Doesn't mean it doesn't affect me anymore, but it doesn't hurt me as much as it used to. So here are my tips on how to deal with failure.
1. Is it failure?
The first thing you need to realise is that failure isn't always bad. To most people failure means that they wanted to do something and didn't succeed. But is there really only one way to do something? For example, when I first started making jewellery I "failed" a lot of times. I used the wrong materials, I attached things the wrong way, I used the wrong colour combinations, etc. You can see of this as a maze. Sometimes you gotta run into five dead ends before you find the exit. So is your failure really failure, or just one step closer to success?
2. Accept it
Failing is normal. Everyone fails from time to time. Sometimes it's our own fault, sometimes it's because of external causes. Whatever it is, you need to accept that you failed. This does not mean you should give up. I'll give another example. As some may know, I have autism and ADHD. This causes a lot of trouble for me when it comes to things like school and sometimes work as well. If I got a euro for every time I failed an exam because I misunderstood the questions, I'd be rich. But I know this is how I work. I know that this is my handicap, and I know I can't change it. So I accept it. When I do schoolwork, I keep in mind that I may not succeed the first time. This has given me a lot of peace and takes away some pressure. So my tip is to accept it. Maybe even keep the possibility of failure in mind. Don't count on it, of course, but prepare yourself for what may happen if you fail. Make a plan. I have done that the past two months because I am writing my graduation report. I knew that it would be difficult for me so I kept in mind that I might not graduate in July like the rest, but that I might graduate in October. And guess what? It happened. I failed my plan of action and am now planning on graduating in October. Am I bummed out? A little. But am I upset about it? No. Not at all. Because I already knew there was a chance that this would happen.
3. Use it
I always say that I don't learn unless I fail. I learn from my mistakes the most, because I'm stubborn and won't change until I learn the hard way that something isn't working. If you fail, there's always a lesson to learn. Analyse what went wrong and use that to make sure you won't make the same mistake again. I did that when learning to make jewellery. I did it when my very first online store failed. Failure always comes with a lesson. Don't ignore that lesson. Look back at your failure and think "this didn't work, so at least I now know what not to do". Then use it to make a new plan. Also ask feedback. I always ask my teachers for feedback on failed exams and reports. It will give you insight in what went wrong and maybe you'll discover that what you thought was right all along, is actually wrong. You can use this for future things as well. Asking feedback is very valuable.
4. Don't compare
Taking the autism example again, I've learned not to compare myself to others. I know I'm a slow learner, I know I need extra time to complete tasks. Yeah, that really sucks and I wish it was different, but I can't change it. So I need to be kind to myself. I'm doing the best I can, and that's what matters. You should do the same. Why compare yourself with the smartest kid in the classroom? It's not fair to do so. You're you. If you need to compare yourself with someone, compare yourself with you. Look at how you've done things in the past. Has something changed? If yes, maybe you can work on that. If not, maybe you just had bad luck. There's not always a reason behind failure. Don't beat yourself up over it. I always tell myself something along the lines of "Yes, you failed. And it really freaking sucks and you have the right to be upset. But you did your best. And now you're gonna prove everyone that you can succeed".
5. Accept defeat
This last step is meant for those who have failed a billion times with the same thing. Like I said, failing does not mean giving up, but sometimes you have to acknowledge that maybe something isn't for you. I know people who went to University and tried so very hard to make it work but kept failing. Their mental health went downhill as did their confidence. Eventually they quit and did something more on their level instead. They became happier and more confident. Of course you should try and do the best you can, but you have to accept that you have limits too. I mean, you can try and teach a penguin to fly, but if it's just not in its nature to fly, it's only gonna get frustrated with itself. The same goes for humans. Sometimes failing over and over again is a sign that maybe the thing you're doing is not for you. And that doesn't mean you're not smart or qualified, it just means that you have to find a different way of doing it, or do something else that will bring you less stress. Even if that means you have to give up on something you really want. I'm all for fighting for what you want, but I'm also sensible enough to know when to quit. Your happiness and health should be the most important thing, and if the thing you want the most is making you cry yourself to sleep every night, then maybe you need to think about if it's a good idea to continue. Besides, you can always try again when you're more stable. I know people who ended up doing what they always wanted to years after a failed attempt, because they used those years in between to gather knowledge and experience. Sometimes quitting merely means taking a break. You can always try again later.
Do you have some tips to add? Let me know in the comments!
Remember when I said I was gonna do this thing weekly? Or monthly? Well yeah, no. That clearly didn't happen. But anyhow, I'm back with lots of cool songs to share! So let's get right to it!
1. GIRLI - Hot Mess
I've been listening to this gal's songs non-stop. She's very unique and her songs are on fire!
2. Petite Meller - The Flute
Again a very unique person with great songs. Definitely recommend!
3. Ina Wroldsen & Broiler - Lay it on me
Ina Wroldsen has an amazing voice, and the original of this song is also beautiful! But this remix is just amazing.
4. Hippo Campus - Buttercup
This is just one of those songs that instantly puts me in a good mood!
5. Dagny - Love you like that
I really can't believe that this girl isn't super famous yet because she truly has some amazing songs!
6. Alligatoah - Du bist schön
I've been listening to a lot of German music lately and this one just always makes me dance and smile.
7. Cavetown - This is home
I found this song through a remix of this song and ever since I've fallen in love with the guy behind Cavetown.
8. Cosmo Sheldrake - Come along
This is the kind of song that tells a story and has an uplifting tune and is just really really good.
9. Blackbear - Anxiety ft FRND
This song is just a mood. And it's a banger.
10. Elderbrook - Could
This is a song that I first wasn't sure about, but started to like more and more the more I listened to it. So now I just play it on repeat a lot.
11. Cuco - Lava lamp
I think this is a song that many people won't like. But I usually listen to this in the evening and it really chills me out. Give it a try!
12. Woodlock - Forever ago
Another very nice evening song. Just sit back and relax.
Got any recommendations for me? Let me know in the comments!
I have a lot of coloured lenses in my possession, of almost every colour. But I didn't have black ones yet. So when Klenspop allowed me to try a black pair I got excited. I have reviewed Klenspop many times, so if you want to know about the service and shipping, scroll through the "review" tab of my blog. These lenses are called "Arte Black" by the brand "New Bio". You can check them out here.
When I looked at the lenses on the website I was expecting for them to give me a somewhat scary look. I liked that idea, so I was really surprised when I put them in and looked rather cute. Luckily I like cute too so that was fine with me. The thing is though.. I have blue eyes, and lenses always have a hole in the middle that's large enough for your pupil and a bit of your iris. So when you put black on blue, you'll see the difference. It didn't bother me much, though. But I think these lenses will look better on someone with dark eyes. Despite that, I liked the way the lenses looked on me.
One plus of these lenses is that they didn't hurt me when putting them in, which is rare. Usually lenses irritate my eyes when I put them in and for the first few minutes afterwards, but these didn't. However, they did move around a lot. When I closed my eye to apply eyeshadow, the pressure of the brush made the lens shift, so when I opened my eyes I had to feel the lens shift back in place, which is kind of irritating. These lenses move when you blink and your eyes are dry as well. They don't irritate like regular lenses, they just move a little. So I'm honestly not sure what is more irritable. Either way, I don't recommend wearing them for a full day. For a party or maybe for cosplay it's perfect.
These lenses surprised me in multiple ways, both good and bad. On the plus side, they turned out to be way cuter than I imagined, but on downside, they moved around a lot. I would wear them again for occasions where I'd need black lenses, but I don't think I'll wear them for an entire day again. Would I recommend them? Depends on what you're looking for. Are you looking for black lenses for a party, a cosplay, or just to wear casually? Then yes, I do recommend them, as they are truly black and not somewhat translucent when you wear them. However I do not recommend wearing them a full day and I do think they'd look better on dark eyes. My overall grade is 6.8, which is still very positive!
*this is a sponsored review, but my opinions are 100% honest.
I love travelling. If I have time and money I always try to plan a city trip of some sorts. But when you're new to travelling it might seem a bit overwhelming just thinking about everything you gotta plan. So I've made a list of tips to make sure you'll have to worry a little less.
Booking a flight and hotel
When booking a flight and a hotel you're aiming for getting the best for the cheapest price. I've found that booking a flight through the website of the airline is cheaper than using a mediator site. This is because the site often includes a fee in the price for their services. Also, booking a couple months in advance will often get you cheaper tickets. And on top of that, certain days or periods of the year can be cheaper or more expensive than others. So when you book a couple months in advance you can easily compare the prices for each date and based on that you can book. If you have a job you'll then have plenty of time to request those days off.
When it comes to a hotel I usually search on booking.com. It's just easy to compare all the different hotels and their facilities. Keep in mind that you want the hotel to be somewhat in the city center, or at least near public transport. So check the location of the hotel first. Personally I've never used an airbnb, purely because I don't want to worry about whether or not the place I'm gonna stay is any good or not. I always book a hotel with the thought in mind that I'm there to sleep and to relax. So I don't need many facilities and fancy things. As long as I can rest there and shower I'll be happy (and of course I'd like it to be clean).
Preparations before travelling
A few things you should always check when travelling somewhere is whether or not you need a visa and if you need any vaccinations. And if you're like me and using medication, you should check if you need a special form for that too. Another thing you should do is look up some words and sentences in the language of the country you're going to. Before I went to China I downloaded an offline dictionary app. It proved very useful when I needed to ask things like "where's the toilet?" because I would just type in the word "toilet" and show the other person the translated word. I know that in a lot of European capitals people generally speak English quite well, but that's not always the case, so you should do some research on that.
Another thing that's worth researching is travel. How are you gonna get from the airport to the hotel? Often airports are quite far away from the city center, so you need to travel to the city. You could of course get a taxi, but as someone who travels alone a lot I prefer not to use a taxi because of the risks that it's a fraudulent one. Instead I research on how to get to the hotel by public transport. The Google Maps app is quite useful for this and I often take screenshots of multiple routes. I also always put the address and phone number of my hotel in my phone (if needed, in the language of the country and in English), that way you can show it to someone if you get lost.
And lastly, before I go on a city trip I make a list of things I wanna see and do. I look up the addresses of the places I wanna go and put those in my phone. It saves you the struggle of having to look things up with possible shitty wifi, wasting time you could be spending on actually doing fun things.
On the day you're travelling you should try and be as relaxed as possible. Because you've made all the preparations you know where to go and what to do. When your flight has landed and you're on your way to the hotel, you need to keep a few things in mind.
First of all, watch your stuff. I always act as if everyone around me is a thief, ready to steal my stuff. It sounds silly, but actual thieves will recognise that you're a tourist and will take advantage of that. So be wary of your surroundings.
Second, don't go with strangers. Ever. If someone offers to take you somewhere, just tell them to give you directions. You can ask a stranger for help, but just don't go with them. Who knows where they might take you. Also while travelling, keep your friends or family updated on where you are. When I travelled through London at night I updated my family on where I was going. I sent texts like "I'm now at Luton Airport Parkway waiting for the train to West Hampstead." "I'm now on the underground to Uxbridge." By doing this, people will know where you are at what time. I've recently read something that said that it's better to give these updates not in real time, in case someone has hacked your phone or following your social media (in case you're posting updates there). It's pretty good advice which I will definitely follow from now on. I also have "find my iphone" turned on and "send last location" (this sends the location of my phone to Apple when the battery is low). I believe there are similar settings on Android phones.
When at the destination
When you've safely arrived at the hotel you can relax a bit. Pick one of the things of your "must see" list, use Google Maps to figure out how to get there, and have fun. Usually I pick things from my list the evening before and map out a travel route: how to get from thing A to B to C by using public transport, involving multiple routes. This saves me a lot of time when I wanna go from A to B.
Keep in mind that while sightseeing you should keep your personal belongings close. I usually wear my backpack in front of me. My phone is never in my pocket unless my hands are in there as well, and I try to make sure my wallet is in the middle of my bag so people would have to dig if they tried to pickpocket me.
Try to act like a local, like you know the city. Don't stand somewhere looking around with a confused look on your face. Go sit down and look up the route on your phone, appearing to be texting. Try to stay in the crowd, especially at night. Watch your drinks when you go clubbing or to a bar, and once again: don't follow strangers.
I know this all may seem like a lot of things to keep in mind and it seems like it will spoil the fun. But once you've become more confident in travelling you'll notice that these things come naturally. You can enjoy a trip by yourself, or with friends, as long as you're aware of the risks. Once you're sure that you've got everything under control you can have a stress-free vacation.
Do you have any travel tips? Let me know in the comments!
So yesterday I was at the Spring Festival gala and I got free things to take home, one of which were these self-cooking noodles. I had never heard of them so I decided to try it out on camera. It became more like an awkward comedy, so enjoy.
So during the Christmas holiday I went to Austria, which was very fun! I intended to post pictures here, but I decided that I might as well just post my vlog here! So here is my Austria vlog. I hope you'll enjoy it!
I know, I know, this title sounds incredibly cliché. But hear me out okay? There's a reason I'm talking about this subject of following your dreams.
The past few months I've had quite some people tell me that they find me an inspiration or that they admire me. After denying all this and being a flustered mess, I ask them why. Their reason is always the same "you do all this cool stuff and have so many projects going on".
This intrigued me, because I never feel like I'm getting much done. Heck, I have no idea what I'm doing half of the time. But it really got me thinking.. How come that there is such a difference between how I see the things I do and how others see it? I think it didn't take me long to figure out what the difference was.
People always talk about them wanting to do things in the future. "Oh, I really wanna get singing classes again" or "I would love to start my own webshop". And then they never do it. I'm impulsive. Always have been. If I want to do something, I want to do it now. It has gotten me in a lot of trouble, but it has also given me a lot of nice opportunities. And that brings me back to the title of this post: why wait? Do it now.
I wanted my own webshop, so I started that last year. It's going slow, but I enjoy it and there is progress visible. I learn from it too, and I can use that for the future.
A few months ago I said to myself that I wanted to give acting another shot. I have never really had many classes but acting is something that I enjoy, despite my anxiety. So in the past two months I've had several auditions, one role as a featured extra, and one small role in a student production. It's not much, but my goal isn't to be famous anyway. i just wanna get some acting experience, is all.
I said I wanna write a poetry book, so I've set the goal for myself to write a poetry book in 2018. I don't know if I will be able to publish it, but at least I would have written it.
Sometimes dreams seem impossible to reach because you would need certain things such as money and time. But there is always a way to make at least part of it come true. Want to run the Boston marathon but don't have enough money to fly there from where you are now? Start training. Start saving up. Don't put that on the shelf. If you really want it, work for it.
Want to become a famous painter but you don't have the time to paint that often? Put things aside to make time. Even if you spend one hour a week painting, it'll be a step forward to reaching your goal. You don't have to change your entire life around to reach your goals, as some things can be combined with your current life. But the important thing is to not dismiss things you really want.
So I guess that's what I'm doing now. I wanna make my dreams come true. I wanna have things I can work towards and things that I can just put some time and effort in. And if someone finds that inspirational then that's fine by me. But to me it's only a logical thing. I have so many things I wanna do and I don't wanna wait until it's too late. I wanna show the world what I have to offer, even if the world isn't looking in my direction. I'm doing this for me, and no one else. I hope others will do the same.
Just like the past two years I’ve written a kind of review of the year. 2017 was an interesting year for me. I saw a lot, did a lot, but also struggled with quite some things.
Let’s start at the beginning. In January I started my webshop Yellow Days, which I am still quite proud of, despite it being small. I have fun running it, and I have big plans for the future. I went to a cosplay convention in February, which was very fun. I got married for one day to the other half of the duo cosplay I was doing, so that was rather funny.
Then in April I went to visit my boyfriend, and it was really nice seeing him again. Also in April I went to Prague, which was amazing. I had such a good time with my family, and Prague is an amazing city. Immediately after that I went to China for two weeks, which was the farthest I had ever travelled in my life. China was such an amazing experience and I really wanna go back there. Also learning (basic) Chinese for the short program I was doing was just great.
I think it was in June when I went to my first German cosplay convention with my good friend Chantal. I really had a great time there!
In the summer I met up with some friends and I went to Amsterdam Pride! At the end of the summer I went the entire weekend to Abunai, another cosplay convention. I also had a really great time there.
In September I started my graduation year, which is still a weird thing for me to realise. I also got my HSK1 Chinese certificate with a perfect score of 100%. In October I got a nice part-time job as social media manager at a finance company, and in November I turned 21, which I still refuse to accept. In December I went to Oh Wonder with my friends Joëlle and Lisa., and we had such a good time there.
And now I’m writing this while in Austria, where we’ve just seen the most amazing view of the snowy mountains with a bonus of a setting sun. I guess 2017 was a great year in terms of travel and events.
In 2017 I decided that I wanna write a book in 2018. I also wanna give acting another shot, and was recently a featured extra in a short commercial. It was the year where I decided to do more of the things I wanna do. I also got better at some aspects of witchcraft.
Now to the darker side of the 2017 coin. In this year my social anxiety got worse, and I had a few mental setbacks, as my depression came back worse than it was last year. I have reached out to a psychologist and am now on the waiting list for an intake, so that’s gonna be fine. But sadly my depression is chronic so that’s always gonna be an issue.
Despite that, 2017 was a good year for me, and it gave me more confidence that I can reach my goals. I’m excited to see what 2018 will bring me, and I hope that next year around this time I will be able to look back just as positively, if not even more so, at the year as I do now. Have a good 2018, y’all.
I have so many lenses in my current collection, in all sorts of colours, except for the colour brown. This is kinda ridiculous, as I think brown eyes are really pretty. So this time I got myself brown colour lenses! They're called "Glam Madonna Brown". Again, thanks to Klenspop for letting me try them! Wanna know what I think? Continue reading..
At first when putting these lenses in I noticed how much of a gap they leave in the middle, making it seem like I have blue eyes with a brown ring. However, when I looked at myself from a distance, they were definitely brown, and the longer I looked at them the more I fell in love. I think these lenses will be especially beautiful if you have green eyes. If you have really light blue eyes I don't know what these will do, but I know that at least from a distance, when you look at yourself in the mirror,they make you eyes seem brown, which is what you're going for after all.
If there is one major bonus point to be given to these lenses, it would be the feel. When I put them in my eyes did not tear up at all, which is very rare. They didn't irritate my eyes the first ten minutes, like many other lenses do, and I didn't feel them until my eyes were getting dry from watching Netflix all day (oops). At the end of the day I did feel them a little but they didn't irritate my eyes, so it was not like it was really bothering me. These lenses are one of the most comfortable lenses I've had so far!
Overall I'm super happy with these lenses! They look great, and they are super comfortable. I think I'm gonna wear them a lot, honestly. The only thing that I don't like that much is the fact that when you're up close you can clearly see where the brown ends and the blue begins, and thus that they are colour lenses. But then again, I don't think anyone is gonna inspect my eyes. So These lenses get a 9/10! If you want to purchase them, click here! And if you want a discount, just use the code that is on the banner on the side of my blog.
*This is a sponsored post, but my opinions are 100% honest
Well I guess I failed at that weekly thing. And the monthly thing.. But at least that gave me some time to discover more awesome music! So here are a couple songs for you to enjoy.
1. Her's - What Once Was
This honestly has such a nostalgic vibe to it, and I listen to it a lot.
2. Wild Child - Crazy Bird
I love love LOVE their songs. Like, all of them. Just go check them out. Do it.
3. Ghosted - Get Some ft. Kamille
This song is a perfect candidate for a song I could listen to all day.
4. TÜLPA & BLANKTS - Blueblack
I love this song so much and I'm so glad I found it. I really should check out what else these two have to offer.
5. Billie Eilish - COPYCAT
Honestly I don't undestand why this song isn't being played on the radio all the time. It's so good!
6. Hey Violet - I Can Feel It
This song is 2 years old but I just found it and I'm in love. Not just with the song, either..
7. Danny LaRue - What We're Looking For
How does this song have so little views? It's a freaking masterpiece if you ask me.
8. Gabrielle - Ring Meg
I've been listening to a lot of Swedish music really, and this is one of my fave Swedish songs.
9. Caravan Palace - Russian
A great song from the masters of electroswing.
10. Skott - Mermaid
I've grown to love Skott's songs, and this one is one i've been listening to a lot lately
11. No Vacation - Beach Bummer
I recently discovered this band and their songs are honestly so nice to listen to. Give it a try!
Do you have any songs on repeat? Let me know!
It's no secret that I love plants. As a kid I never understood why people had plants, but as I grew older I came to love them. Amongst my friends I’m now known as “plant mom”, because of the fact that I own 18 plants. So I decided to put a few of them in a spotlight and show you my children!
1. Aloe vera
This is one of my first plants, which I’ve had for over two years now. I bought it at Ikea when it was a lot smaller. A few months ago I repotted it into a larger pot because the previous one became too small. It even has offspring, as Aloe Vera often grow tiny plants which can be repotted and grow into a new plant. I saved some of the offspring and even gave some away. In that sense I’m a grandparent now.
Aloe Vera are one of the easiest plants to care for, as they don’t need that much water and can withstand a lot. Actually, it’s easier to overwater them than to dehydrate them. I think it’s very suitable for a first time plant owner.
I bought this one at a cosplay convention where I was a dealer. I’ve had it for about a year now. This one has had me worrying a lot because every once in a while it loses a lot of leaves and I have no idea why. However, it’s still alive and kicking. In fact, there is even a tiny new plant sprouting! I’m unsure if it will last, but at least that’s a sign that my baby is alright. Bonsai’s require a lot more care, as you’re supposed to spray it with water twice a week, and submerge it into water for 5-10 minutes once a week. It also can’t be in too much sunlight but also not in too much shade. Even though I’m not supposed to, I’ve been moving my bonsai around a lot because it never seems to be satisfied with its spot.
3. Aglaonema Butterfly
This one I got for my birthday little less than a year ago. It’s a shadow plant, so it’s hiding behind one of my cabinets. This one also had me worrying a lot as it lost of a lot of leaves in the beginning. Luckily it pulled through, and it grew new leaves. Now it’s slowly losing leaves again but I figured that’s because we’re heading towards Winter. So I hope it’ll pull through again. It doesn’t need much water, especially not in the winter, so it’s not that hard to care for.
4. Senecio Scaposus
This is one plant in particular that I’m really proud of. It started out as a small plant and it has now grown bigger and bigger, to the point where I have to help it stay upright (I haven’t gotten anything proper yet so for now I’m using a straw). It’s a succulent so it doesn’t need much water. I think it’s a really pretty plant, too. But I think that about all my plants of course. It’s sat on my nightstand, so I often see it first thing when I wake up.
5. Haworthia fasciata
This one I’ve had for about one and a half year now, and I love it so much. It’s such a pretty succulent. It hasn’t grown in all that time, but it’s also never been sick or anything like that. So as long as it’s healthy, I’m happy. It doesn’t need much water and likes sunlight, as long as it’s not too bright.
6. Wandering Jew
This one I got from my friend’s mother. She had cut a few stems from the original plant to grow a new plant with, and had given three small stems to me. And my god, did it grow. It still amazes me how much it grew in a few months time. It’s funny because I never really saw any new stems or leaves sprouting. It just.. grew. It almost seemed like it grew from the roots, the way hair grows. It became really long, and some stems broke because of that. Also because sometimes when lifting it up the stems and leaves would become tangled and got stuck, and it would break. But there is still a pretty large part left, and the parts that broke seem to be growing again. This plant needs about an average amount of water. Just not too much and not too little. It really depends on how dry the soil is.
I got four cacti, three of which I bought at the same time I bought the aloe vera, which means I’ve had them for over two years now. Two of them have grown since then, and one of them hasn’t. Which is fine, really. I’m just glad it’s alive and well. The fourth cactus I got about one and half years ago. At first it only had one flower, but now it has grown and has gained more flowers. I think it’s really pretty and just very cute. I water the cacti about once every two weeks. The biggest mistake people make when they buy cacti is to overwater them. The cacti I have have once been without water for a month, and they survived that still. So cacti are good plants for people who forget to water their plants a lot.
Finally, I want to give some tips on watering plants. Just a tip though: when you water your plants, even if it is a cactus that hasn’t had water for a month, don’t give them too much water. Overwatering isn’t just giving water too often, it’s also giving too much water at once. My mom is a good example of how it shouldn’t be done (sorry mom), as she waters all her plants once a week or every two weeks, and gives them all a large amount of water. Sure, some plants can take this, but some don’t, and thus they die. So if you have a lot of plants, try and figure out what plant it is and what its needs are. To make this easier, I found a cool app to help with that called “WaterMe”. You can add a plant by giving it a name and adding a picture, along with a watering interval. When it’s time for you to water the plant, you’ll get a notification. That way you won’t have to keep track of which plant needs to be watered what day.
So that’s a little insight in my plant collection. Do you have any plants? Let me know in the comments!
The lenses that I'm reviewing today are Brianna's "Exciting Wine" lenses, from Klenspop. i like that the name of these lenses kinda reflect how I feel about them, because I was super excited to get them. And when I got them I was even more excited to wear them and show them to you. Again, I will skip the whole company, contact, shipping, and packaging thing, as I've discussed that many times before in other reviews. So let's get to it, shall we?
These lenses are supposed to be wine red, but in the bottle they looked rather magenta. However, when I put them in they did look like wine red. They're not super vibrant, but they don't go unnoticed either. I do feel like they leave the middle, where your own eye colour comes through, more visible than other lenses. But maybe that's just because of the colour. I kinda wonder what they'd look like on dark eyes, as I have a feeling you won't see them as good on dark eyes. But for me, they work perfectly. I also really love how they look on me and how they work so natural with my overall look. Of course, it's not a natural colour, but I wouldn't mind wearing these casually.
From all the different brands I've got so far, I really like Brianna. Mainly because it takes a good couple hours before my eyes will start to get dry and the lenses will start to get itchy. With most other lenses this takes like an hour (note: they only get itchy, but not uncomfortable), but with Brianna lenses it takes longer. Even when they do get itchy I can still wear them for an entire day. These lenses I wore an entire day without being too bothered by them.
I think these lenses are in my top 5 favourite lenses. I'm unsure at what position, but they're in there. They're just so pretty and wearing them is no problem at all. The only thing I don't really like is that the hole in the lenses is so obvious. This is less with some other lenses I own. Also, since they're comfortable, but not the most comfortable lenses I own, they won't get any bonus points for that. So on a scale of 1 - 10, I'd give these a 7.8! Still impressive, if you ask me.
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*Although this is a sponsored post, my opinions are 100% honest.